every day they want you to shrink:
fit here, in my palm, in my shadow, don’t be bigger than my idea of you, don’t be more beautiful than i can accept, don’t be more human than i am willing to allow you to be and be quiet, you’re too loud, even your unbelonging is loud. quiet your dreams, your voice, your hair, quiet your skin, quiet your displacement, quiet your longing, your colour, quiet your walk, your eyes. who said you could look at me like that? who said you could exist without permission? why are you even here? why aren’t you shrinking? i think of you often. you vibrate. you walk into a room and the temperature changes. i lean in and almost recognise you as human. but, no. we can’t have that.”
I finally got around to watching the tfios clip, and it’s so awful. Can’t stop cringing.
But also, Augustus’ stupid metaphor is even worse when spoken aloud. I guess it’s partly the way the actor chose to do it, but the way he explains it to Hazel is unbearably condescending. Like, he thinks it’s funny that she’s so freaked out.
How silly of you, Hazel Grace, to think I’d take out a cigarette and smoke it. How silly of you to not realize that it’s a metaphor. Of course it’s a metaphor, isn’t that so obvious??
The words “you’re overreacting” were pretty much implied.